Bunnies are Boring!

If only life was full of fluffy bunnies and chocolate (no, wait....take that back, life would be boring and fat!).......however it isn't always...

I'll be honest with you - I've got a pretty fab life. I'm part of a close (and arty farty) family who make my drama queen outbursts look like calm conversations about cucumber sandwiches............ I've got some pretty great friends who accept me for who I am and regularly make me feel that it's ok for me to be me.......... I also have really good self esteem and have spent many minutes in front of the mirror checking out my own butt (hehehe) , talking about my butt...( I could go on but I'll salvage what dignity I have and stop)

At seventeen I was more or less untouched by tragedy and bad things only ever happened on the news to other people. I was excited and passionate about God, my life and everything the world had to offer.

Then the poo hit the metaphorical fan.

A car crash, two suicides, several family illnesses, depressed loved ones, political poo, a good helping of loneliness & rejection and one burnt down house later, my attitude had altered slightly. I returned home this summer to realise that I had stopped trusting people and was feeling disillusioned.

The likelihood is that in your life you're gonna face things that will challenge your outlook and tempt you to lose hope. There is a distinct scent of cynicism in British culture today - individually and on a national level. Many people have been through painful experiences and have, somewhat understandably, lost the positive and hopeful attitude they once possessed.

Four months ago I was faced with a choice: continue to fade into the attitude I had acquired or fight it. I did not want to wake up in twenty years time to find nothing but a disillusioned shadow of the passionate person I once was.

So I decided to face my issues and with a lot of help, work through them. I'm not completely there yet - I still find it hard to trust people with whats really going on deep inside but I'm trying...... if you know me, please be patient :) I have however made a lot of progress. I've decided to trust God (and I mean really trust him) again and I've moved on in many ways. Most importantly.......... I'm REALLY HAPPY!! (woop-dee-doo!)

I'm going to be passionate, I'm going to open up to people, I'm going to love myself (maybe a bit too much at times, hehe) and I'm going to eat a darn load of chocolate - oooo yeah!

It's a choice that at some point we all have to face. Make the right one.